Everything is getting blown out of porportion today.
I can't deal with her fear, I can't deal with my mood swings.
It wasn't supposed to be this way, and I don't know how to fix it.
Damn it, I don't know why you're so upset!
Rien n'est gaché, si c'est ca que tu veux tu n'as pas reussi.
Il faut faire plus que ca pour me faire partir.
The lack of trust hurts me.
Just because everything's not perfect in every detail doesn't mean I'm going somewhere, just because I'm exhausted doesn't mean I'm breaking up, just because I need to be by myself one day doesn't mean I don't want to be with you.
Your insecurity confuses me, I'm lost, I don't know how to deal with it.

Your face is burning in my mind
your soul is shaking my world
it's not that I can't live alone
it's just I want you in my life
not like a sister or a friend
that wouldn't satisfy my heart
wouldn't satisfy my soul

Look deep in me
Be close to my world
I want you to
See right through my lies
Burn my truth
Stay at my side forever
I want you to

This isn't like it used to be
I'm not the same as I was then
The world has been shaking
since you entered it
My soul is shaken to the core
My eyes has never been so busy
as they are when you're near

Look deep in me
Be close to my world
I want you to
See right through my lies
Burn my truth
Stay at my side forever
I want you to

Could we watch the sunrise together
I could make us a cup of tea and
you could get us a blanket
The world would be silent and calm
I would still love you
cause I don't need you to burn me
all the time
But I want you to be close

Fucking brilliant day.

1. Woke up and made love to my baby.
2. Sunny morning.
3. Went for a job-interview, seems like I'll get it.
4. Listened to Dog Almighty in my headphones and went to the supermarket.
5. Got home, found my flatmate in a brilliant mood.
6. Saw my flatmate finally taking out the trash.

And now?

"But for now, let me say I love you. Nothing more seems important right now." Nice song, and so true. Of course I care about the rest but no, not really. What we have is beyond reason. And what happened last night was... mindblowing.
I need to eat, study, clean and book the laundrymat, but my mind is filled with all these "good thoughts", I can't focus!
I'm starting to wonder wether I've ever really been in love before.

My girl took me to this exchange students thingy last night.
It was damn strange.
I'm sure they're all really nice and I really like her closest friends, but there are some fucking weird people there. I'm not used to being stared at, I mean what is it exactly that is SO fascinating about a lesbian couple? It's not like we were having sex on the dancefloor, all we did was stand outside, smoking and holding hands. People kept coming up to us, offering sexual favours...... uhm... how can I put this nicely.... GO TO HELL.
We were like a walking talking pornfilm for those guys, and it totally freaked me out.
I've never experienced this in Sweden before. In London yes, but never here.
I'm still kinda upset about this night, and I should just let it go.

Luckily me and my girl had a very good talk afterwards. I'm focusing on feeling instead of thinking, and my feelings are all over the place. I'm just so relaxed now, not trying to control the situation but just letting myself flow. It's a beautiful feeling. Just holding her in my arms and feeling like a million bucks.