Snow me in

Everything is so calm out there now. The snow is falling down like a thick wet blanket, covering everything in silence. No people in the street, hardly any cars on the roads... The street lights are giving everything a warm orange glow.
I ran back home from the meeting at the club tonight. Snow was covering my clothes, my hair and my face, no one was around and I felt blissfully happy and had to run. So with my latest obsession "Make Me Bad" by Korn in my ears I ran for what felt like hours but probably only lasted twenty minutes. Felt like I was only person left in the world and somehow that made me strangely excited.

Now here I am, hours later, with candles lit in my window seal and the quiet storm raging outside. "Rage rage against the dying of the light." The snow gives light though. Everything ugly that autumn left behind is now covered in white untouched snow.
I'm listening to Sneaker Pimps and thinking about how everything is ever changing. How I'm never constant, never permanent. And how that worries me sometimes. But not here, not right now. Here and now everything feels strangely complete, apart from the lack of your presence. Deep down I'm a loner, I like being alone. But you're in me, it's like I carry your spirit with me wherever I go. So when you're not there, your spirit is quiet, watching me. Makes me lose my sence of direction, makes me feel a bit lost in my actions. I pick up my books and I leave them. I start eating and then throw it away. I make a list of things that need to be done and lose it. And my bed looks awfully big.

Reading your blog is bittersweet. The warmth of shared emotions fills my veines and the sadness in face of the gap between us givs me shivers. The vision of different universes is haunting me, both of us sitting on a planet, like Le Petit Prince, like royalties in our own kingdoms. You have your reality, I have mine. Shall they ever merge?